I am responsible for my mother's death

[Natali91]

I looked after my mother for a long time. I worked in Moscow and called every day. After my mother said that she had nothing to drink, there was no nurse, my son was not there (he was on a business trip), he drinks from the toilet. And she’s not walking; Well, the Russian owners fired me one day.
I arrived, the ampoules were lying around, no injections were given. Mom drank from the potty (there are some that are tall) and walked, naturally, on her own.
There was money, so she hired doctors and nurses. She raised her mother and even began to walk on a walker. She took five steps from them to me.
The 100th anniversary has passed. Bathing. We washed it together with the social worker.
Fell
Worker. Couldn’t keep her from taking the bath. Hematoma of the left leg (bruise). Aspirin should not be given.
. She went, I’m usually a light sleeper, to go potty (and asked for a bedpan). I took it off the pot, there was a sea of ​​blood. Ambulance, hemostatic agents.
Mom is unwell in the morning. I’m still giving injections. One is cardiac, and the other is ----------hemostatic. Caused a stroke
Three days later and she died, then a stroke. I’m guilty, if I hadn’t given that injection, my mother would have lived.
I went to church and was guilty. Father said....
I consider myself guilty, I didn’t watch it, I didn’t save it.
Four years have passed, I go to church, but I consider myself guilty. Father said, you will never let your mother go like that.
Maybe that’s why it doesn’t matter with sex. The last time was in November. If I write, it’s like everyone else, but I feel bad