Anonymous Male 20 years old. All the girls think I'm weird. And yes, I'm a virgin...

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Anonymous Male 20 years old. All the girls think I’m weird. And yes, I’m a virgin because I never got to the “x” moment with any of them. When I was 13, my late father raped a young girl who looked no more than 15 years old. It happened in our basement. I saw it all and didn’t say anything to anyone. I don’t know what happened next. I didn’t see her again. He tied her up and pulled her nipples. She was all beaten up and covered in blood. Every night he went down to the basement and I watched him. And I could barely hear the screams; the acoustics were very bad. I was scared and didn’t tell anyone anything. Years later, at the age of 15, I had my first girlfriend, she was 14. When we kissed for the first time in the park, my pod went crazy. I got under her skirt and she pushed me away. I have always been a modest guy, but it was as if demons had possessed me and I wanted to fuck her brutally. He hit me on the head and tore off my panties. I heard a group of people heading in our direction. I got scared and let her go. We didn’t see each other again. I began to fear my own desires and actions. After this incident, I tried to isolate myself from communicating with girls. Even porn didn’t help me cum. I only got a kick out of horror films where maniacs mutilate their victims by cutting off their nipples and eyes and fucking their skulls. Only then could I cum. When I turned 18 for my birthday, my mother gave me a ticket to a sanatorium. I refused for a long time because I was afraid of society and my desires, but my mother insisted. There I met a cute girl, she was 15 years old. She was very beautiful, blue eyes, blond hair and a thin waist. She was very petite, which excited me even more. She was a virgin. We kissed on the verandah while no one was there. And I invited her to come visit me. A week later she came to see me. I said that my mother was at home and she was out of sorts and called her into the basement. I began to lightly choke her and reached into my panties, she said that she was not ready, that it was too early to do this, and then my pod swelled even more. I took the jack and hit her. I took the first thing that came to hand. It was tape and rope. Tied her up and gagged her. I took a fork and began to scratch her neck, tore off her clothes and scratched her nipples until they bled. I jerked off with one hand. God, how I remember and again the stone one. I wanted to shove a screwdriver into her hole to deprive her properly, but my mother started looking for me and I went home. When I arrived she was no longer there. What a pity I never finished. I never saw her again. Now I am talking to a girl who is 17 years old. I want to lose my virginity to her in that basement. She is also still a girl. I plan to make her my slave for two weeks and beat my father’s record. I just don’t know what to do next with her. If I let you go, we’ll go to the cops. If I kill, it will be a shame where to hide the corpse. This is not a throw-in. I’m a real guy and I really love this type of intimacy. Everyone has their own preferences. I love you all commenters. Kiss! Your Volodya!