Ephemeral love and fantasies. Really want to...

[Polly]

with him and only with him...

Well, no, it’s not that bad with me))
But it really happens when only he is in my head

[niqk]

And I’m not saying that this is bad! For example, I adore my wife. You could say she’s my fetish! But this
doesn’t stop me from fucking her friends...

[Polly]

niqk, in general, I am a passionate person by nature and sex is for love is not always equal to me.
But... Here I meant something a little different. This is about a specific situation and specific feelings. Forbidden Fruit and burning desire. What could be worse.

[niqk]

Oh, this forbidden fruit! How many people did he kill? Starting with Eve...

[Polly]

niqk, and they can be understood. I would risk paradise too)

[niqk]

niqk, and they can be understood. I would risk paradise too)

Yes. We are all people, we are all human!

[Sahaha]

There are no photos here, why is there such a forum?

[Hole]

So it won’t show itself. Gee.

[The passage]

When I read the title of the topic, and then about the feeling that lasted several years, a feeling crept in that I had a problem with my language. For a minute I even doubted whether I understood the meaning of the words correctly?! I even had to Google it.
I Googled it, everything is correct for me. Ephemeral - Fleeting, short-lived, short-lived, fragile.

[Hole]

So it’s a stupid dreamer of the middle sex. It was necessary to name the topic - fictional, obsessive love. But it doesn’t understand the word ephemeral...

[Polly]

Ephemeral - Fleeting, short-lived, short-lived, fragile.

Look deeper. This word has a second meaning, google it again. Open Wikipedia if this scratches your insides so much. But here this word is used precisely in its second meaning: imaginary, imaginary, unreal, unreal, illusory, apparent, ghostly; partial: ethereal

This story is not a fantasy, it is very real and painful for me. And yes, it sometimes looks illusory and unrealistic even for me. And sometimes you want to scream, but in life only a close friend knows this story. And not all of it. There’s no telling about it. And sometimes you just want to talk it out. And this topic is like a page in a personal diary. Forgive me if any word offends you.

[The passage]

Ephemeral - Fleeting, short-lived, short-lived, fragile.

Look deeper. This word has a second meaning, google it again. Open Wikipedia if this scratches your insides so much. But here this word is used precisely in its second meaning: imaginary, imaginary, unreal, unreal, illusory, apparent, ghostly; partial: ethereal

This story is not a fantasy, it is very real and painful for me. And yes, it sometimes looks illusory and unrealistic even for me. And sometimes you want to scream, but in life only a close friend knows this story. And not all of it. There’s no telling about it. And sometimes you just want to talk it out. And this topic is like a page in a personal diary. Forgive me if a word offends you.

I am not offended by words. Imaginary love is not even short-lived. Illusory is something that doesn’t really exist.
You can describe it in simple words, but if you want it beautifully, then choose your words more carefully. So that people understand exactly what you want to convey to them. Ah, then the meaning changes.

[Polly]

You can describe it in simple words

I describe it as best I can. With the words that come to mind. I didn’t select anything specially and I don’t chase beauty either. As it is. I am more than sure that everyone understood perfectly what I was talking about and you understood it too. Why these quibbles?

[The passage]

You can describe it in simple words

I describe it as best I can. With the words that come to mind. I didn’t select anything specially and I don’t chase beauty either. As it is. I am more than sure that everyone understood perfectly what I was talking about and you understood it too. Why these quibbles?

I didn’t read the topic. I read the title, read the first post and realized that you have your own meanings for words.

[Polly]

Illusory is something that doesn’t really exist

Do you want to parse every word of my story into its components? It’s more about the soul, and not about the clear meaning of each word written in the dictionary. Use your imagination. Everything is written quite clearly.
If you read a little more carefully, you will notice "it looks like sometimes", yes, it sometimes looks like an illusion. Let’s analyze the composition of the sentence and write down the meaning of the word sometimes? You can replace it with the word "sometimes", "periodically" and so on. Just what is all this for? Here we are no longer talking about history, but about the Russian language. Can I write the way I feel? If you don’t understand something (and in general to any person reading), ask a question, I will explain what I was talking about. If this is suddenly interesting.

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you have your own meanings of words

I haven’t read it, but I condemn it) well, everything is clear. Okay) What you don’t read, but just so you can write, I understand. Because this is not my own meaning, it is spelled out verbatim in Wikipedia, which is what I wrote to you (but you didn’t read) if you went to Google, you probably saw it. But I see that you simply have no one else to get to the bottom of. Maybe the Russian language forum would be useful to you.

[puffy]

Are you here to whine again? Write already that your old man finally fucked you! He already has a hard-on at the end of his sex career. Come on, hurry up

[puffy]

I wrote it wisely, bio-garbage won’t understand.
Soon your old man won’t have horseradish. And the topic will disappear on its own. Hurry up to fuck him. Now everyone understands

[The passage]

Wrote wisely, bio-garbage won’t understand.
Soon your old man won’t have horseradish. And the topic will disappear on its own. Hurry up to fuck him. Now everyone understands n

Admit it, are you rushing her because this old man is you? Are you afraid you won’t make it in time for your last boner?

[Polly]

Insulting as the norm and not giving a damn about people’s feelings.
How disgusting

[In Luke]

interesting topic and history.
How are things now?
Has something changed?

[Polly]

Has something changed?

It has changed) It has gotten worse, unfortunately
In general, I’m not doing very well on this topic

[Mihaaa 4]

prospects for changing the situation for the better? Maybe just leave him alone and not warm your head, but just get distracted and live life to the fullest. Let the dream remain a dream! Otherwise, how can you live without a dream?!

[Polly]

prospects for changing the situation for the better?

Of course there are prospects. Why not?
I don’t yet know how to behave correctly in order to turn the situation in my favor.
A third person has appeared between us, who is diligently trying to alienate us as much as possible.
Leave it on and don’t warm your head. This is something out of fantasy. If a person could order his brain to stop worrying and not think, then all the problems in the world would instantly disappear for humanity. It doesn’t work that way. It doesn’t come out when clicked.

[In Luke]

If your heart tells you that you can’t live without it, don’t give up! The one who walks will master the road. You are communcating?

[Polly]

Are you communicating?

Thank you. Yes, we communicate. Still regular for now.

[Mihaaa 4]

A third person has appeared between us, who is diligently trying to distance us as much as possible.

Who else is this??? Woman ? Or program director?

[Polly]

Who else is this???. Woman ?

The most offensive thing is that she is not a woman. If I were a woman, I would still understand this behavior.
Man. New person on staff. Acting like a teenage girl. He takes on a lot and tells him all sorts of nonsense.
Does all sorts of dirty tricks.

[Mihaaa 4]

Who else is this???. Woman ?

The most offensive thing is that she is not a woman. If I were a woman, I would still understand this behavior.
Man. New person on staff. Acting like a teenage girl. He takes on a lot and tells him all sorts of nonsense.
Does all sorts of dirty tricks.

There are such gangsters, but why is he constantly between you? Or does your favorite listen to him?

[electronics]

I never thought that I would experience this, but it happened. And every day I am more and more captured by this feeling, so much so that I could even climb the wall. I fell in love. Every part of body and soul. A person who exists in my life very abstractly. We are from different worlds and lives. This is an adult uncle, twice my age. A famous person. I am sure that everyone reading this now knows him. Or at least heard about it once. I fall asleep and wake up thinking about him. And no, this is not a passing fad. This has been going on for many years. Over the years, I still managed to do something. I am not an empty phrase for him. Do we know each other. There is some contact with this person if necessary. I don’t know what to do with this, I can’t let him go, I can’t even get closer. Next to him, the butterflies in my stomach don’t just flutter. They grow sharp claws and literally tear from the inside. I dream about sex with him. So clearly and tactilely that even when I woke up I remember the feeling of his touch. I really want it. Holding his hands, kissing his lips and dick. I’m ready to do anything for him... But how can I switch him to this wavelength?
This is all literally driving me crazy...
Sorry. I spoke out.

I had something similar. At school. It was grade 3-4. I liked one girl. So much that it was wow.. I didn’t want sex (what sex at 9-10 years old)), but a higher feeling. I wanted to be next to her and look at her forever. Hugging, holding hands, just carrying in your arms. I still remember her

[Mihaaa 4]

I never thought that I would experience this, but it happened. And every day I am more and more captured by this feeling, so much so that I could even climb the wall. I fell in love. Every part of body and soul. A person who exists in my life very abstractly. We are from different worlds and lives. This is an adult uncle, twice my age. A famous person. I am sure that everyone reading this now knows him. Or at least heard about it once. I fall asleep and wake up thinking about him. And no, this is not a passing fad. This has been going on for many years. Over the years, I still managed to do something. I am not an empty phrase for him. Do we know each other. There is some contact with this person if necessary. I don’t know what to do with this, I can’t let him go, I can’t even get closer. Next to him, the butterflies in my stomach don’t just flutter. They grow sharp claws and literally tear from the inside. I dream about sex with him. So clearly and tactilely that even when I woke up I remember the feeling of his touch. I really want it. Holding his hands, kissing his lips and dick. I’m ready to do anything for him... But how can I switch him to this wavelength?
This is all literally driving me crazy...
Sorry. I spoke out.

I had something similar. At school. It was grade 3-4. I liked one girl. So much that it was wow.. I didn’t want sex (what sex at 9-10 years old)), but a higher feeling. I wanted to be next to her and look at her forever. Hugging, holding hands, just carrying in your arms. I still remember her

And in your case, what did you do or didn’t do? Accepted or rejected?

[electronics]

I was so shy that she and I studied until the 11th grade, and I never decided to admit to her my feelings for her

[Polly]

Or does your favorite listen to him?

I don’t know how much he listens, but after they talk we start arguing. Mine has questions for me (I helped him a little with his work). My help begins to depreciate with the help of that freak. Only everything calms down and something nasty happens again. And it turns out that lately we have been in intense communication. But for now, fortunately, he still finds the strength not to give up on me.

[Mihaaa 4]

He wants you to survive, he’s an opportunist, he’s an asshole. If yours is not a fool and doesn’t like flattery, he will understand and drive him away.

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I was so shy that she and I studied until the 11th grade, and I never decided to confess to her my feelings for her

And this often happens. I had the same real cases when I was shy and then many, many years later, when we met, it turned out that she wanted the same thing and was shy too. But time passed and both built families with forever ideal relationships. So I chickened out and lost...

[Polly]

He wants you to survive

I already understood that. Mine is not a fool, he usually reacted very sharply to such things. But this time, either he’s still holding him for some purpose, or he’s simply not in the mood to delve into this showdown yet. He now travels around the country a lot. She believes him because he is cunning and resourceful. He knows how to present it in such a way that he is white and fluffy and generally great, and everyone around only wants bad things for my man.
So I say that I don’t know how to behave now. Wait until this freak destroys himself with such behavior, try to make excuses (I might make it worse) or just do what you did and not show your emotions to either one or the other.

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the feeling was higher

This is a wonderful feeling)) I have it too. But due to my age, mine is also intertwined with other desires. Although sometimes it takes precedence over everything else. Clean...

[Mihaaa 4]

Of course you have to be yourself! And time will put everything in its place. This does not mean that you should be offended and give up. You have to be wiser; for every action there is a reaction. I can’t say more precisely because I don’t see the whole picture. The most important thing is not to get discouraged, otherwise you will crumble.

[electronics]

And this often happens. I had the same real cases when I was shy and then many, many years later, when we met, it turned out that she wanted the same thing and was shy too. But time passed and both built families with forever ideal relationships. So I chickened out and lost...

Yes.. We met several times in the city after school. I told her at the last meeting, remember, we went down the slide together during the break between classes? It seemed to me that she realized that I liked her all the time that we were studying.

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And now I can’t forget about her.

[The passage]

And this often happens. I had the same real cases when I was shy and then many, many years later, when we met, it turned out that she wanted the same thing and was shy too. But time passed and both built families with forever ideal relationships. So I chickened out and lost...

Yes.. We met several times in the city after school. I told her at the last meeting, remember, we went down the slide together during the break between classes? It seemed to me that she realized that I liked her all the time that we were studying.

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And now I can’t forget about her.

You need to meet her, communicate. Close gestalt.

[electronics]

You need to meet her and talk. Close gestalt.

Is this to make me forget about her?

[Polly]

time will put everything in its place

Thank you for the kind words!
My nervous system waved its hand at me a couple of times during this time and it’s true it’s hard , but nothing. I can handle it. I’ll try)
I understand it takes time. I hope this time will really come and everything will fall into place.
That very pure feeling that I wrote about above will not let me just give up everything. He is very dear to me.

[The passage]

You need to meet her and talk. Close gestalt.

Is this to make me forget about her?

nYes. First love is a beautiful fairy tale. In your case, you can read between the lines a longing for the past. The past interferes with the future.
You will arrange a symbolic farewell.

[electronics]

You need to meet her and talk. Close gestalt.

Is this to make me forget about her?

nYes. First love is a beautiful fairy tale. In your case, you can read between the lines a longing for the past. The past interferes with the future.
You will arrange a symbolic farewell.

I understand. And that the first time happened late for me, maybe this is the reason?..

[The passage]

Is this to make me forget about her?

Yes. First love is a beautiful fairy tale. In your case, you can read between the lines a longing for the past. The past interferes with the future.
You will arrange a symbolic farewell.

I understand. And that the first time happened late for me, maybe this is the reason?..

The main thing is that the first time happened. Why it’s late doesn’t matter anymore.

[electronics]

I understand. Thank you)

[In Luke]

Although sometimes it takes precedence over everything else

This is more difficult to bear. If there was only lust, it would not be so difficult.
And if we put aside the desire for sex, as I understand it, the craving still remains?

[electronics]

You need to meet her and talk. Close gestalt.

Is this to make me forget about her?

nYes. First love is a beautiful fairy tale. In your case, you can read between the lines a longing for the past. The past interferes with the future.
You will arrange a symbolic farewell.

I wonder how the conversation would go and how it might end. After all, I still have feelings for her, albeit not so intensely. While still at school, she fell into bad company and, as I understand it, she lost her virginity early. As far as I know, she is not married, but from her VK page it is clear that she has a vibrant sex life. Now, by the way, I can’t find this page anymore. Can I have a future with her? Or the train has left a long time ago and you just need to forget about her. Now I have a girlfriend, but... This is probably not the same at all. She is married, two children, her own life. However, he managed to become attached to her.

[Polly]

I understand that the craving still remains?

of course. I have always had feelings for this person, for many years.
And a very strong physical attraction appeared more recently. Maybe a year like
But something else always comes first. I really want to show concern, I want everything to be fine with him
I enjoy him. And after some events I can’t even be offended.

[The passage]

Is this to make me forget about her?

Yes. First love is a beautiful fairy tale. In your case, you can read between the lines a longing for the past. The past interferes with the future.
You will arrange a symbolic farewell.

I wonder how the conversation would go and how it might end. After all, I still have feelings for her, albeit not so intensely. While still at school, she fell into bad company and, as I understand it, she lost her virginity early. As far as I know, she is not married, but from her VK page it is clear that she has a vibrant sex life. Now, by the way, I can’t find this page anymore. Can I have a future with her? Or the train has left a long time ago and you just need to forget about her. Now I have a girlfriend, but... This is probably not the same at all. She is married, two children, her own life. However, he managed to become attached to her.

You can only find out after you talk to her. I also had my first love. We walked together and even kissed) I will always remember this love. He just has his own life, and I have mine. We also met with him. I was married at that time. We slept together and that was enough for me to understand that he was not something special and extraordinary, but an ordinary man. We even talked on the phone for a while, and then we let go. Now I have warm memories from childhoodseparately, but it is real separately. As if these are different people.
Well, on the contrary, you might end up in a relationship. It is difficult to predict the unpredictable. In any case, you need to close the gestalt.

[Mihaaa 4]

I can imagine what’s in Polly’s soul, how she’s being torn apart from the inside. Anyone who has experienced this himself will understand this. It’s worse when there is no reciprocity, and it happens when a person, seeing dependence, begins to manipulate."One loves - the other in a couple allows himself to be loved." In this case, there are many options, but there are almost no positive ones.

[Polly]

And it happens when a person, seeing an addiction, begins to manipulate

Fortunately mine is not like that. Yes, there is no reciprocity, but he does not manipulate or take advantage. On the contrary, he allows a lot, forgives a lot, and is very kind and polite to me.
If we don’t take into account the last time we fight. But even so, he tries to resolve everything carefully and tactfully. Even though it itself explodes. Then he calms down and calms me down.
But you are right. It truly tears you apart from the inside.

[Nayadi]

If everything is clear in your relationship that he will never be with you and will not respond with mutual feelings and passion, then why is all this? Why beat yourself up and harass yourself? Maybe you need to rethink your relationship and turn it into a business or friendly one and not expect passion and love in return. I understand that it’s easy to reason from the outside, but it’s difficult to reprogram your brain. Instead of living your life to the fullest, meeting a person with whom there will be reciprocity in all respects, starting a family, you are simply drying out (sorry if you hurt feelings, but I think so)