How I approached the issue of abstinence this time - the last month before the New Year I masturbated regularly, sometimes more than twice a day, sometimes to the wildest porn, sometimes without porn at all, in public places, toilets and so on. I deliberately masturbated more than usual, simply psychologically setting myself up to enjoy myself to the fullest before completely removing it from my life for a while (better forever, but I have to be realistic). Ideally, after abstinence, I would like to merge the seed with someone who will aspire to some kind of long-term relationship, because it is already approaching 40, and there is no person on the horizon with whom I would like to remain in a relationship. This is one of the most important factors in abstinence, because jerking off and promiscuous sex corrupts, turning a person into a lazy and uninitiative individual who is too lazy to care about relationships and work on them.
But this time I also decided to give up casual sexual relationships, of which I had more than enough. I am grateful to fate that all this passed without consequences for health, although I often gave in and allowed, for example, some ladies I didn’t know much to give in the mouth without a rubber band and many other crazy gestures, even without having Miramistin at hand in some situations, a banal human shower or even though would be a washstand. But after I stopped using alcohol and other substances, such contacts also became very rare, and now I’m even ashamed to remember some fragments that, now that I’m sober, I can’t imagine again.
In general, so that my abstinence would proceed more or less smoothly and would benefit not only me, but also society, I decided to direct my sexual energy into something useful channel One of the activities I want to keep for myself is this writing, in order to partially sublimate the unspent potential in creativity and in the design of texts and stories from the past. Perhaps I will describe the difficulties I encounter if this is in demand. The most difficult stage, of course, will be a complete cessation of porn, because I have developed an addiction to it over the years, there has always been a lot of it and all sorts of different things. Now all this will remain overboard, at least for a while. I hope that my endeavor will be useful to someone else in the future.
Happy New Year!






