I don’t know what this is connected with, but I am very excited by the thought of giving a blowjob to a powerful, adult man...
I want to be "bought" and forced to give a blowjob.
Or rather, I know with what...
Many years ago, when I was a poor student, I was hitching a ride to study. The truck stopped. I sat down, on the way the driver offered to give him a blowjob for money, I refused. But he still turned off the road, drove far into the forest and continued to persuade. I took a bottle of water and washed myself with soap.
The amount he offered was not small, my mother gave me less for a week. I was scared, but I refused, although for some reason this thought made me very excited. He was much older, closer to retirement age.
As a result, he used force and I still sucked him off with tears in my eyes. Came quickly. Cum in mouth. This was my first blowjob.
He took me to the place and gave me money. I got out of the car in a fog, but for some reason very excited.
It was a strange excitement mixed with shame.
Since then I have grown up a long time ago, I am 38, pretty .
I have a business, children, a family, but I am wildly excited by the thought that I will suck for money from an adult stranger whom I see for the first time in my life and I don’t even know his name.
Married, my husband is not aware of my secret fantasies.
And these memories haunt me....What should I do?




